I was driving home today and started thinking about how parents who have ugly babies will always think that their baby is beautiful. And then I thought, maybe they actually are disappointed with what their babies look like and just accept that this is their child and it will be beautiful to them. I wonder if I will be disappointed with what my baby looks like? SUCH A TERRIBLE THOUGHT! I have always been told (even before marriage) that my babies would be beautiful, but what if my expectations are to high and I am disappointed? Such a terrible thought, makes me want to slap myself. Mark has such amazing features, his eyes and eye color are incredible, his mouth is perfect and he has a beautiful smile. Hopefully our child will have his good looks...they can have my dark complection and hair. So terrible to even care...but for some reason I do. What is wrong with me?! hahaha!!
Friday, August 26, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
The Unexpected Event...Is now Expected!
I know that nobody really pays attention to this blog...So, I am going to make an informal announcement. Mark and I are going to be parents! I have known I was pregnant for about 6 weeks, but I didn't want to say anything till I saw an ultrasound. But I don't want to make any facebook announcements till after I pass 20 weeks. Only because I am so paranoid of a miscarrage, I don't want to jinx it by making a big announcement only to be sad later on (such a pesamist I am!). I am now 13 weeks along, and I had my first ultrasound today. It was probably the most amazing thing I have ever seen. My baby, right there on the big screen. As soon as the doctor placed her wand thingy on my stomach, i saw a head, a torso and two skinny little legs kicking like crazy. I was overcome by emotion and shock to see that deep inside of me is a living human being...and it is a creation of mark and I. Wow. So amazing. I can't stop looking at the pictures of the ultrasound. I just pray that the baby will continue to grow healthy and strong, but it is the lords will, not mine. Mark had no words other then 'I don't even know what I am looking at right now.' It was really funny, this must be so weird for him...I am just in la la land right now. In two weeks I will have another ultrasound, after that I think I might make a big announcement, but we'll see. YAY!! I'M GOING TO BE A MOMMY! Poor kid. haha!
The left photo is of the baby looking at us face to face (looks like an alien.)
The right photo is of the babies profile (aww, so cute!)
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Self Realization
I noticed today that I have a habbit of creating awkward situations. When I know that someone does not like me, I make a habbit of saying hello to them or waving to them to aknowlege that I notice them. I don't know why. Maybe it is because I like to see them have a face of 'what should I do back' or maybe it is cause I want them to feel annoyed...not sure. It is always funny though. You don't have to like everyone, but acting like they don't exist is just childish. Am I alone in doing this? Or does anyone else enjoy this too?
Life Changing
I am reading a new book called 'The Five People You Meet in Heaven' by Mitch Albom. So far it is a really interesting book. It is about a man who works for an amusement park as a mechanic. The book starts out with the last few minutes of this mans life and the beginning of his death, and follows him into the after life where he meets five different people that are tied to him in some way or another. The first person he meets is a blue man that he had only seen once in his life and felt that they were total strangers, but the blue man explains to him that they are tied in some way...you end up finding out that the blue man saved the old man's life when he was young, but the old man would have never known it. In one part the blue man says, "The human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed."
Lately I have been thinking about this concept. Not so much about how when someone dies it is cause death passed another person. But how he says " the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed." I was thinking about the choices that I have made in my life and how they have not only affected my own life, but marks life as well. Before I came back home from rexburg in 2008, I had met someone that I felt I cared strongly for. I felt the need to stay in rexburg to be with that person to see if I could be with them in the future. I had spoken to my mom about staying in rexburg during my fall break and working, but she encouraged me to come home so I could be with the family. I was disappointed in my decision, but I knew my family needed me. Had I decided to not go home, I would have never met mark less then a month later. We would have never become friends and we would have never been together. My decision altered his life, in finding his future wife.
Our bishop who is a seminary teacher was sharing a story about when his wife and him went to the temple to pray about a new career move. After much prayer, they felt prompted that he needed to teach at a different school. His choice allowed my brother in law and sister to move to tucson to teach at the old seminary where my bishop was teaching. My sister then convinced my parents to move to Tucson where they could start a new life. The decision of my parents to move from oregon, in the long run, allowed me to move to the place where I would meet my husband. It is interesting that my bishop, years ago, following the promptings of the spirit, allowed for me to find the man I will spend eternity with. We are all tied together. The choices that people make, can alter our futures. Though, sometimes these choices may upset or disapoint us, in some way, our futures will be altered.
So interesting! Makes me feel that I need to be a little more careful about the choices I make in my life, cause I never know whose life I may alter.
Lately I have been thinking about this concept. Not so much about how when someone dies it is cause death passed another person. But how he says " the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed." I was thinking about the choices that I have made in my life and how they have not only affected my own life, but marks life as well. Before I came back home from rexburg in 2008, I had met someone that I felt I cared strongly for. I felt the need to stay in rexburg to be with that person to see if I could be with them in the future. I had spoken to my mom about staying in rexburg during my fall break and working, but she encouraged me to come home so I could be with the family. I was disappointed in my decision, but I knew my family needed me. Had I decided to not go home, I would have never met mark less then a month later. We would have never become friends and we would have never been together. My decision altered his life, in finding his future wife.
Our bishop who is a seminary teacher was sharing a story about when his wife and him went to the temple to pray about a new career move. After much prayer, they felt prompted that he needed to teach at a different school. His choice allowed my brother in law and sister to move to tucson to teach at the old seminary where my bishop was teaching. My sister then convinced my parents to move to Tucson where they could start a new life. The decision of my parents to move from oregon, in the long run, allowed me to move to the place where I would meet my husband. It is interesting that my bishop, years ago, following the promptings of the spirit, allowed for me to find the man I will spend eternity with. We are all tied together. The choices that people make, can alter our futures. Though, sometimes these choices may upset or disapoint us, in some way, our futures will be altered.
So interesting! Makes me feel that I need to be a little more careful about the choices I make in my life, cause I never know whose life I may alter.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Finally a Vacation!
This past week Mark and I had the opportunity to go to Salt Lake City for the Ontiveros family reunion. It was so much fun to finally get away from hot, mundane Tucson and get out in some green, cooler weather. This would be the first time that mark would meet his extended family from his Grandfather Mike Ontiveros side. Mark went to the Ontiveros family golf tournament and won it! In return for winning, he got some of his great uncle chug's Masters memorabilia...let's hope it is worth some money someday. haha Everyone at the reunion was very nice and it was kind of cool to think that mark was blood related to all of the people that were there (at least, I thought it was cool).
We also had a chance to visit with some of my friends. We went to provo to visit with Jack and Jess kingsford and finally get to see their adorable baby. Made me happy to see them and how adorable their little family is. We went to seven peaks, which was just as awesome as I remembered it. Breakers is so crappy in comparison. We also got to eat at my favorite restaraunt in provo, Thai Ruby...oh how I love their curry! Yum Yum!
We did a lot of shopping, we went to a couple asian markets in slc that I used to go to when I was in college. I got supplies to make Boabo tea, so good!
We also went to the Nationwide tour, which was pretty awesome...mark should play in that, hopefully someday.
Overall it was a pretty wonderful time. I wanted to stay so bad. Even contemplated how we could make it work if we decided to stay for good. But, the process was to difficult to figure out and we would make a lot of people upset. Not worth it I guess. I am just so tired of tucson...but i know it is just cause i hate the summers here. Not having air conditioning in my car really puts a damper on the summer. Oh well, it will be over soon. But I would not say no to moving to Salt Lake, the summers are so beautiful!
Overall it was a pretty wonderful time. I wanted to stay so bad. Even contemplated how we could make it work if we decided to stay for good. But, the process was to difficult to figure out and we would make a lot of people upset. Not worth it I guess. I am just so tired of tucson...but i know it is just cause i hate the summers here. Not having air conditioning in my car really puts a damper on the summer. Oh well, it will be over soon. But I would not say no to moving to Salt Lake, the summers are so beautiful!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Unexpected July
I used to believe that I could control everything in my life. If something happend that I was not expecting, I could always pin point it to a decision that I had made that lead to the unexpected event. Well, July has proved me wrong...and I wish that I could say what it is, but I have to wait a few more weeks till I can announce it. All I know, is if it is confirmed...it was COMPLETLEY unexpected, but the lord has his ways.
I received the promotion for the HR Generalist position, but have been waiting to start till they fix the salary they originally offered me. I will not work for peanuts here people! And that is what I was practically being offered. A little bit disrespectful in my taste. I have a new HR manager who is causing annouance amoung operations and HR, so that has made the last few weeks a little difficult.
Mark got in to U of A to finish up his last year and a half in chemistry. Never really doubted that he would get in because of his steller grades. My mark is so smart :) He has worked so hard in school and has not taken any breaks this year so he could transfer asap. I can't wait till he is finished with school and we can take a little more vacations together. But I am so proud of him for sticking to school, golf and working almost every day...he is the hardest working person I know. Some people think he is a slacker because of golf, but what they don't understand is that if it wasn't for golf, we probaly couldn't afford his education. Golf pays for everything! I am very grateful for his amazing talent, he works so hard to be good at it. And he is.
He starts in August and is so excited to be a wild cat. We are hoping that he will be able to continue to law school at the U of A, which will be nice cause we won't have to move...but then again, expect the unexpected.
So pretty much, we have been blessed. The 'unexpected' event is also a blessing, but will just be a challenge for the first few years while mark and I are working, but we will make it work. I know that heavenly father does things for a reason, and his hand was DEFINITLY in this one...no doubt!
I received the promotion for the HR Generalist position, but have been waiting to start till they fix the salary they originally offered me. I will not work for peanuts here people! And that is what I was practically being offered. A little bit disrespectful in my taste. I have a new HR manager who is causing annouance amoung operations and HR, so that has made the last few weeks a little difficult.
Mark got in to U of A to finish up his last year and a half in chemistry. Never really doubted that he would get in because of his steller grades. My mark is so smart :) He has worked so hard in school and has not taken any breaks this year so he could transfer asap. I can't wait till he is finished with school and we can take a little more vacations together. But I am so proud of him for sticking to school, golf and working almost every day...he is the hardest working person I know. Some people think he is a slacker because of golf, but what they don't understand is that if it wasn't for golf, we probaly couldn't afford his education. Golf pays for everything! I am very grateful for his amazing talent, he works so hard to be good at it. And he is.
He starts in August and is so excited to be a wild cat. We are hoping that he will be able to continue to law school at the U of A, which will be nice cause we won't have to move...but then again, expect the unexpected.
So pretty much, we have been blessed. The 'unexpected' event is also a blessing, but will just be a challenge for the first few years while mark and I are working, but we will make it work. I know that heavenly father does things for a reason, and his hand was DEFINITLY in this one...no doubt!
Friday, July 1, 2011
PROMOTED!
About two weeks ago I made a quick decision to apply for the HR Generalist position with my companies west location working with Apple technology employees. I was encouraged by my peers to apply for the position, they have a lot of faith in me. I was doubtful about recieving the postion as I have not yet reached two years in HR and have been working as an assistant to HR with no prior experience. I read through the resumes of those who were applying for the position (as I have access to those things) and realized just how little experience I have in comparison to these verterans of HR that were applying for the position.
Well, after 6 interviews with both SDM's for the site, our regional HR director, HR manager, HR assistant manager and our Vice president of operations, I landed the promotion!!! I could be super excited about the huge pay increase, or the fact that I will be working at one of our nicest locations, but really I am just excited to gain some really great experience and work closer with the employees.
When I recieved the news I felt that I was going to vomit. I am REALLY going to miss my current team. They are my mentors and have given me the tools to succeed in my current role. Plus, they are my friends...I am so sad to leave my center. I am also going to miss the employees that I have known and followed since they started with the company...bittersweet. And it is such a big responsibilty and a lot of people counting on me to do a great job. PRESSURE! But I trust my peers, and if they have faith that I can excell in this position...then I will!
Well, after 6 interviews with both SDM's for the site, our regional HR director, HR manager, HR assistant manager and our Vice president of operations, I landed the promotion!!! I could be super excited about the huge pay increase, or the fact that I will be working at one of our nicest locations, but really I am just excited to gain some really great experience and work closer with the employees.
When I recieved the news I felt that I was going to vomit. I am REALLY going to miss my current team. They are my mentors and have given me the tools to succeed in my current role. Plus, they are my friends...I am so sad to leave my center. I am also going to miss the employees that I have known and followed since they started with the company...bittersweet. And it is such a big responsibilty and a lot of people counting on me to do a great job. PRESSURE! But I trust my peers, and if they have faith that I can excell in this position...then I will!
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